Finally, that exercise you have been trying to do for so long, suddenly succeeds! You’re extremely happy, but how long does that last? The next week, when you try that exercise again and you succeed, are you still that happy? Losing a positive feeling also happened to me in my normal life, not only when doing Pilates. I had to find a new job and was feeling awful every time I got rejected. However, I should have celebrated every time I was asked for a job interview! Pilates is positivity!
I want to bring more positivity in my life and therefore started my ‘’Positivity file’’. My own personal file where I take note of every POSITIVE thing that happens in my life. This file accounts for all aspects in my life, so also of or metal achievements when I was more assertive in a difficult situation for instance. And …also…when I found a new job ! Whenever I write a new event, I reread my previous ‘positive events’ and remembered how I felt when I achieved them. That makes me feel happy and that is a feeling I want to keep! Rereading what I have achieved in the Pilates field also makes me proud .
When I started to do Pilates the Roll Back was so difficult. I was afraid to fall and was using the wrong muscles. Now I am able to roll up and down completely using the Roll Back Bar and yes, correctly, due to Marjolein’s expertise ! Achievement!
There is an exercise that remains a challenge , the Short Spine Massage. Yes, I admit that halfway, I still need a little help from Marjolein, but I feel it is going better every time I do it and I love feeling the back muscles!
I am becoming strong, physically and mentally, I even started to investigate if I could improve my way of walking. Imagine walking with a bag of potatoes on each leg, that is on or about the feeling I have when I walk (every day, no exceptions.). Doctors told me that walking will become more difficult throughout the years and I would need a wheelchair in more cases.(Note: I will never get paralised. Just slower.) .In the past years, walking, indeed, became more difficult but I also felt like this was a normal course of events. I could not believe I was able to teach my body to IMPROVE. And if could improve, then it could not mean I would walk better right?
Now I start to believe that I really will improve. I KNOW I will walk better in 2016. Practising Pilates and keeping a positive mindset will make me achieve this. I will have to continue to listen to my body but now know better how my body works, what my strengths and weaknesses are. I am ready for 2016!